I have to admit, I haven't really been thinking of RGuy that much since our break up. And I'll tell you exactly why. And it's not really because of S.
It's because it's easy to be distracted by school. Once I started the winter term, which was a week or 2 after the break up, I was totally immersed into that life.
I was back in my downtown apartment. I was surrounded by my school friends - friends I got to know on my own without RGuy. I was so busy with school extra curriculars and work, exams, assignments, seminars. Then I went to my conference in Montreal, which is where I hooked up with S. School is pretty much a whole other world without RGuy.
But I know, that the minute the school term is done, and I've moved back home, that's when I will feel it. The summer is when I would spend way more time with RGuy. S will return back home, which is in a completely different province - he may as well be living on the moon.
The loneliness will kick in.
Today for the first time I missed RGuy. I sort of felt this lurch in my heart. I was looking at photos of him on some website, and that's when it hit me. So I'm not a completely heartless bitch. I have a heart. 12:40 PM