But I'd like to think that I've learned a thing or two.
I just had a flood of memories. Just from my playlist of 2000 songs, it happens upon one of the songs I had on repeat after KGuy dumped me. And just remembering the pain and hurt I felt then. I hope I don't have to ever go through that again. Not that things with RGuy are perfect forever and ever. Of course not. But I know I can't let what happened then happen again. It won't. I'm smarter now. 2:53 AM
Tuesday, February 11, 2003
I think I'm ready to tell him I love him.
I had to change my definition of love.
And I realized I've loved him all along - probably just as long as he's been loving me.
Love doesn't equal lifetime commitment. And lifetime commitment was what I wasn't sure of. But love... I think I'm sure of that now. 3:38 PM
Friday, February 07, 2003
I know I don't really write in this regularly anymore, but I'm not quite ready to let it go. You never know when I'll be in the mood to spill my guts again. 6:32 PM