I realize to my own horror that I have become dependent on RGuy. I thought that I didn't miss him while I was away, but now that I am back and I still have not been able to see him yet, I really do miss him.
I am finaly allowing myself to consider the idea of getting married to him. Afterall, it has been 2 years, the thought had to cross my mind eventually. We never talk about the future because he knows better than to freak me out.
When I think about it, part of me feels that maybe I am settling. But the the other part of me thinks that not getting married would mean losing this gift that I have been given of someone who I get along with so well.
I guess it's something to think about. I guess this is real life. 4:22 PM
Monday, January 05, 2004
I just woke up from a groggy nap - a bad idea for 8 PM. Now I'll never get to sleep tonight (again).
I dreamed I was in Finding Nemo and I was a fish. Except we were in a swimming pool. I was teaching all the fish to dance, especially to twirl. They were all bewildered at first, but then they loved it.
It is rare for me to remember a dream so I wanted to write it down. 10:42 PM