It was advice I gave to this guy who has this problem of making girls fall in love with him inadvertantly. He'll be nice to them, and that combined with his incredible good looks just gets him into trouble. He's just one of those guys. That when he talks to you, you feel special. And he's perfectly happy being single.
But now I find myself falling for him. Dammit. How stupid am I? 10:45 PM
Do we not see the traps before we walk into them? And do we not walk into them anyway? Do we not see others walk into the very same trap also? And do we not see them crushed and hurt?
This is the power of suggestion. This is how powerful a look or word or intonation can be. HOPE is a powerful thing. And despite the risks that we are perfectly aware of - we go for it anyway.
But hey, things would be a lot less interesting without it.
Better to have loved and lost, than to never have loved at all.
And here I am. In this long term relationship. Figuring things out. Am I ready to take myself permanently off the market? Or do I still need to be out there searching for something else? Maybe I need a bit more trial and error before settling. And if I make mistakes - am I ready to face those consequences? 4:36 PM
Thursday, December 01, 2005
Why do people play games?
You tell me things that seem so intimate. Details about your family, about your emotions, about the things you do and don't do. I feel like we're getting close. I feel like I'm falling for you.
But then I see you in person. Your eyes don't meet mine. You seem cold and aloof.
I reach out. And although you do respond, you don't exactly meet me half-way... except when we're talking online.
Do I keep my distance? Do I need to protect and guard myself?