Whenever I have "itchy feet" (my terminology for when I feel like I need to escape from my relationship) it usually lasts for a night or two, and then it fades away. I will usually be talking to RGuy on the phone, and then I can't imagine not having him, and the feeling fades away.
However, last night when I saw him, I realized that the feeling was not going away. And that I wasn't really feeling that affectionate. Although I enjoyed his company, I didn't want for it to be physical. I liked walking with him, I liked talking with him and hanging out, but I didn't like him touching me. In other words, those this mean I want things to be platonic?
So does this mean I finally know what I need? Does this mean I've made up my mind about whether I can be with RGuy any longer?
Timing is everything. I know that he'll be really hurt, and I know he is really sensitive, so I will wait until he passes his REBO exam for work. I don't want to f*ck up his exam. The exam is some time in September. I also want to wait until after my birthday, since he is making all these plans for it.
It's been a little more than two and a half years. My sister has this theory that it takes three years to know for sure about a relationship. I guess that theory is sorta working out for me. But I will wait to see if this feeling lasts through September.