Okay I have something to confess. It is retarded to keep secrets from your diary blog anyway.
Something else happened this weekend that contributed to me and S getting closer.
The condom broke.
He checks every time - and this time he found breakage.
Oh geez.
It was horrible, but kinda funny and exacerbating at the same time.
I joked about how beautiful our baby would be. Cause mixed kids always are. Our baby would have this creamy skin - a mix between my pale Asian skin and his light brown skin. The baby would have my asian eyes (they always do). The baby would have wavy hair, since his is curly, and mine is straight with some wave in it. S and I are both blessed with full lips, so the baby would have great lips. And be thin. If it was a girl, she would probably grow to be 5'4 (taller than me for sure), and if it was a boy he would be S's height (5'11).
So when we got up this morning we went to the pharmacy to get Plan B.
When we were back out on the streets, I decided to take it right then and there, since it was already 2 PM, and the second dose needs to be taken 12 hours later. He had his nalgene with him. So I popped the first dose - a small white pill - it seemed so innocuous. Gulped it down with his water. I was worried that I would feel nauseous... and I almost did (placebo effect I guess).
I looked at him. And I told him "I know that I was joking and I thought this was almost funny last night, but I feel sorta overwhelmed right now"
He asked me if I wanted him to stay with me - since he was supposed to be on his way home. I declined, saying I would be alright (I always need to put on a strong front, and it's hard to for me to accept help when it will cause others trouble - it's the asian in me).
He decided to come back home with me anyway. He stayed. And he will call me tonight at 2 AM to remind me to take the 2nd dose.