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Tuesday, January 26, 2010
"J I hope you're okay. I got home ok. I hope that we can still be in touch. I'm not sure if I'm just being selfish. But we'll see how it goes?""E, it really sucks right now and its very complicated."
"I know. And i want what's best for you."
"I just wish the circumstances were different"
"I know that this is selfish of me but I had hoped u would stay and settle here"
"Part of me really considered that. Even now i feel like i don't know what the future holds for me. But i feel like i don't belong here"
"What really sucks is that I thought we were really great for one another."
"I know. I agree. I feel kinda sick about the whole thing. But i know this was for the best telling you"
"My heart hurts right now but I think it was the right thing to do"
"I know. I want you to be okay. Life is so confusing"
"I wish I could tell u that I would move with u, but I think it would be difficult for me because I'd miss my family too much. That's why I understand where ur coming from."
"Don't worry i understand. After what happened to me i would never ask someone to move for me. It's just too hard"
"Life is far too confusing!!! I'm gonna miss u a lot"
"I'm going to miss you a lot too!!! I already do"
"I already miss u too. My heart is aching babe"
"Mine too. :("
"So what do we do now?"
"I don't know. It might hurt too much to still see each other, at the same time i still want to."
"A huge part of me wants to see u, but another part thinks that it would be better if we had time apart. How long... I don't know!!"
"You're right. I don't know either. We'll play it by ear i guess"
"I guess we'll play it by ear. I just wanted u to know that the four months we were together was amazing. I wouldn't change a thing."
"Me too :) they really were amazing"
"I'm going to miss u more than u'll ever know and although it hurts me... I do understand where ur coming from"
"Thanks for being so great J. Be safe. And hopefully we'll figure it all out"
"Take care. And I hope all the best for u."
"Me too. Hope your work week goes by okay. And we'll maybe talk soon?"
"I'll see how things go. It might hurt too much. What do u think?"
"You might be right. It's all too fresh right now. We'll see how it goes?"
"Ok. I want u to know that I care about u and I think time may be the best healer. Bye baby"
"Okay. Bye baby. Good night"
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"E, I just have 1 more question for u... can u see urself being happy here with me?"
"It's possible i could have been happy here with u. Just given the choice of settling down here and going home i think i need to go home. I just don't know when."
"But u think it will be sometime soon?"
"Unsure. Not until after march for sure. Depends on job situation"
"Ok. I just don't want to mess up this great thing that we have. Do u know what I mean? I love being around u"
"I know. It's complicated. i know that being apart is prob for the best so that we can move on. at the same time i could give in to seeing you cause i'm not that strong."
"I think that it may just be a replay of last nite and that would be tooo hard for me again!!! I guess I'm trying to prolong the inevitable. It totally SUCKS.
Babe so I guess this is good bye. I'll always remember the great mini trips we had, the food we shared, waking up next to u in a warm bed, the way u jump at the slightest sight of blood, and the way u giggle when I kissed ur body. I'm going to miss u!!!!"
"I'm going to miss you too!! I'll never forget how great you were to me and how much fun we had and how compatible we were :) thank you for the last 4 months."
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