I'm actually keeping really busy. I am going on a trip to Hong Kong and potentially a side trip to Thailand from there later this month. I will be going on a weekend getaway to Vegas in May. It's amazing how things can happen so quickly. And I'm glad that life is unfolding fairly well for me. And I guess from an outsiders point of view I am excelling at freedom.
Despite all this... despite it all, I still think about S everyday. Every. Damn. Day.
I think about what he was thinking when I left him. I thought I could read his eyes. I thought I saw tears. I think about what he really wanted. I think about what he's thinking now. I wonder if he thinks of me at all.
And really, I have no clue.
I could analyze this break up to death, and probably be no closer to the truth. I guess there is supposed to come a point where I just let it go and forget about it. I haven't really reached that point yet.
My love for him overwhelms me. My clearly unconditional love just still persists. I guess I still have to wait longer for that to go away. 1:57 AM