Just got back from a mini trip with M and some other friends. Now I have the post-travel blues...
It was a good weekend, I honestly felt like I was on the verge of being in love for real. But at the end of our trip, I almost felt like I was getting a mixed message from him again. We were on our way back home and I thought that I was going to stay over at his place tonight. But then on the flight back, he mentioned a very early meeting he had. And the way he said it... I guess I read between the lines that he didn't want me to stay over.
It's weird.
During the trip, one of my best girlfriends told me that she liked M because she could see how much he liked me. And after she said that I appreciated him much more. I noticed how he liked to hold my hand and show affection.
But the paranoid part of my brain thinks that he's just going through the motions of a relationship, but that sometimes he just doesn't like me that much. Maybe I'm crazy. Maybe I need to trust my instincts. 12:17 AM