I can't help but feel like I'm at a fork in the road. On one side is my path with N. On the other side is my path alone.
The path with him in it is almost a sigh of relief. In this path I get to get married and have a lovely wedding. We buy a house together and have children. This path also wins the approval of everyone around me.
The other path is freedom. I get to buy a dream condo in the city. I have choices. I get to live like the ladies in SATC. Tell me that was real. This path is also scary because it is unconventional. And maybe people will pity me because of my inability to be in a relationship.
I just don't know if things with N are really that good. Am I settling because I'm just at a certain age? Or is this the real deal?